Hello, 18 year old Michelle

I was thinking about my poly days and the "olden days" the other time on bus and I actually got reminded of Isaac out of the blue (and it's super random kind), of how he's a big bro to me at workplace and when I had my heartbreak and was crying at work he stood firm and tell me to wipe off my tears and stop crying for a guy that's not worth me crying over, how he, knowing I've low self-esteem, tell me that I'm not that fat or ugly, that I've my beauty. And from what I can remember, he's the first guy that'd told me all these things. 

Am just utterly thankful that we've crossed path in life. And so, this is what I've wanted my 18 year old me to know.(as inspired by a lot of online vlogs)

So here it goes:

Hi 18 year old Michelle, I'm your 27 years old you. 

Stop being so playful already and start to get your life right already. Start to be serious about studying and stop skipping classes. At least scoring well will get you into places you might want to go in the future(thou you might not like what you're doing now).

Stop feeling insecure about whether your boyfriend will cheat on you or not. Why are you so insecure about such things when you've not been cheated on before? So little faith? And don't be so emotionally dependent on him. It'll save you a little in the future. Learn to be more independent and think of what you really want. If this isn't the life you wanna lead then stop telling yourself lies that it "might" work one day, just one day, cos that one day will never come. 

Start to speak what you really meant and stop saying things out of anger, it hurts.

Start saving up and stop spending all your money away. It's a good habit after all. 

Stop seeking for attention from all the wrong places already. Learn to love yourself and respect yourself. You're not an object. You're worth much more than the partying. Stop thinking that all those piercings are nice, cos frankly speaking you're just addicted to piercings and you just wanted to "look tough" but you're not at all inside. 

Stop craving for people's praises. Cos in time to come you'll know whose words actually matters.

18 year old me, you're beautiful even if nobody tells you so, cos you're special in your own ways. 

(P.S: I bump into him today at Raffles Place bus stop, thus decided to do this post.)

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I've decided to flaunt all my weaknesses and insecurity to show how I am in the past, and how much God has transformed me; to tell you how real this God is in my life and to show how much His grace has changed me.

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